Change

Recently, I read a story and came across a quotation, " Nothing is more painful than an abrupt and drastic change." Today I feel how true it is ! A time was there when everybody was trying to make me happy. I was listened to with great care. My opinions were valued at large. Today I try to make everyone happy. I am quite ignorant what of my actions makes anyone happy, sad or angry. A time was there when I was full of flowing information. Today I struggle to find scanty of information. Besides, a new issue has turned up. Everyone today talks about creativity. Where is this creativity? Does creativity arise from intelligence, reading or experience? I am not even able to organize my thoughts. They fluctuate. But one thing I am certain of. Life is changing for me. I lost my grand father. Does it make a large difference for me ? Perhaps not. Lately I had almost no contact with him. Then what is there which is causing an emptyness in me. There appears lot of activity around me. But I do not feel enchanted. There is peace inside me. No passion. No enthusiasm to do anything. I am now-a-days lingering many things. Is it that age is overpowering me? I commit, now-a-days, a mistake and later feel sorry for that. Then why did I ever make the mistake?